Happy B-day, Daria!!
When all of your wishes come true...
Many of your dreams will be destroyed...
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
01:04 a.m.
If you don't know if you have found what you are looking for
The silver-lining always starts to fade
And what you don't know is that you don't know the truth anymore
Now you try sleeping in the bed you have made
The feeling is gone and the circle is broken
Like water under a burning bridge
A million words but nothing is spoken
A deafening silence replaced by fear
Save me
I can't find my way home
The grace i've fallen from
The only truth i've ever known
So when you tell me what you tell me
I can't take it anymore
The same old story goes around and around
You think that if you speak alittle louder than you did before
The point you make might somehow stick around
If empathy is no more than a token
I cry a river in the pouring rain
The princess still sleeps but she will be woken
Her kiss of love is killing me
Save me
I can't find my way home
The ground i'm walking on
The only friend i've ever known
Mother father
The battle I fight is for no one
No one but myself
Brother sister
The devil inside is my own now
There's no way you could understand
You don't understand
Mother father
The tears that you cry are for no one
No one but yourself
Brother sister
I travel this road on my own now
There's no way you could understand
Monday, March 22, 2004
12:59 a.m.
Fast as you can, babe
YEY for daria....she needs it...she loves it....she'll die for it...'cause this is her life and nothing else matters.
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
04:21 a.m.
I've been a bad bad girl
I've been careless with a delicate man
And its a sad sad world
When a girl will break a boy
Just because she can
Don't you tell me to deny it
I've done wrong and I want to
Suffer for my sins
I've come to you 'cause I need
Guidance to be true
And I just don't know where I can begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal
And I need to redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
Heaven help me for the way I am
Save me from these evil deeds
Before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings the consequence
At hand
But I keep livin' this day like
The next will never come
Oh help me but don't tell me
To deny it
I've got to cleanse myself
Of all these lies till I'm good
Enough for him
I've got a lot to lose and I'm
Bettin' high
So I'm beggin' you before it ends
Just tell me where to begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal
And I need to redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
Let me know the way
Before there's hell to pay
Give me room to lay the law and let me go
I've got to make a play
To make my lover stay
So what would an angel say
The devil wants to know
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal
And I need to redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal
And I need to redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
Monday, February 16, 2004
01:35 a.m.
I am the son
and the heir
of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and the heir
of nothing in particular
You shut your mouth
how can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does
There`s a club if you`d like to go
you could meet somebody who really loves you
so you go, and you stand on your own
and you leave on your own
and you go home, and you cry
and you want to die
When you say it`s gonna happen "now"
well, when exactly do you mean?
see I`ve already waited too long
and all my hope is gone
Sunday, February 8, 2004
11:56 p.m.
She said "i'll throw myself away,
They're just photos after all"
I can't make you hang around.
I can't wash you off my skin.
Outside the frame, is what we're leaving out
You won't remember anyway
I can go with the flow
But don't say it doesn't matter anymore
I can go with the flow
Do you believe it in your head?
It's so safe to play along
Little soldiers in a row
Falling in and out of love
With something sweet to throw away.
But I want something good to die for
To make it beautiful to live.
I want a new mistake, lose is more than hesitate.
Do you believe it in your head?
I can go with the flow
But don't say it doesn't matter anymore
I can go with the flow
Do you believe it in your head?
[Luv this song.....I listen to this over and over again, but just now I ralized how much it makes sence...luv it...]
Thursday, January 15, 2004
02:15 a.m.
I've been busy....reaaaally busy...Ok it does not justify the fact tah I'm no uploading this.
I'm tired of writting..and writting, besides....everithyng is fine...and I don't like postin when I'm....happy....is unecessary...
anyway...I'm alive.
you'll be given love
you'll be taken care of
you'll be given love
you have to trust it
maybe not from the sources
you've poured yours
maybe not from the directions
you are staring at
twist your head around
it's all around you
all is full of love
all around you
all is full of love
you just ain't receiving
all is full of love
your phone is off the hook
all is full of love
your doors are all shut
all is full of love
all is full of love
Thursday, December 4, 2003
10:38 p.m.
I'm happy, I'm fasting, I'm studying....life couldn't be better...or not! o.O()
^______^
Thursday, November 13, 2003
10:07 p.m.
Me loves TUSCA! *.*
'Hangoverrrrrrrrr....
i did too many drugs and alcohol....
I have a hangoverrrrrrr...'
Sunday, October 26, 2003
11:47 p.m.
covered in hope and vaseline
still cannot fix this broken machine
watching the hole it used to be mine
just watching it burn in my steady
systematic decline
of the trust i will betray
give it to me i throw it away
after everything i've done
i hate myself for what i've become
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
01:20 a.m.
I want to kiss you, want to feel you so deep.
Your silky skin, a tender touch, a sign that promises so much -
I want to kiss you, want to feel you so deep...
Nothing ever spoils my joy of loving you, of looking in your eyes ...
Monday, September 29, 2003
11:14 p.m.
I'm soooo pissed off!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<'
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!!!!
and I dunno why! ¬¬'
Thursday, September 25, 2003
11:29 p.m.
LET`S JUST KILL EVERYONE
AND LET YOUR GOD SORT THEM OUT...
Saturday, September 20, 2003
01:28 a.m.
I dunno if i love or hate stomach pains. Pobrably both...
Anyway is good to feel clean inside. u.u
Thursday, September 11, 2003
12:30 a.m.
I'm not that useless. I listem, I help and I know how to cook. I'm a good girl! or not..
Does anyone wanna marry me? 9.9
Saturday, September 6, 2003
08:27 p.m.
I'm cold, i'm ugly
I'm always confused by everything
Ican stare into a thousand eyes
But every smile hides a bold-faced lie.
Monday, September 1, 2003
12:22 a.m.
The boys said that if I get thinner they'll despise me, shall I be glad or sad about it? o.O()
Sunday, August 17, 2003
11:24 p.m.
I'm gonna fast..the whoooooole week. Yeah!
Lilith: Me loves you!!! Thanks for understanding....I bet you're the only one!! =**
Monday, August 11, 2003
11:34 p.m.
Make my life less miserible and write on my guest book, pls?? 9.9
Thursday, August 7, 2003
10:12 p.m.
I love to feel my stomach empty. Makes me fell so...clean.
Thursday, August 7, 2003
12:48 a.m.
He couldn't believe how easy it was
He put the gun into his face
BANG!
(so much blood for such a tiny little hole)
Problems have solutions now
A lifetime of fucking things up fixed
In the determined flash...
Wednesday, August 6, 2003
02:04 a.m.
Fast as you can, babe...
Thursday, July 24, 2003
12:28 a.m.
You make me sick when you're around. So.. FUCK-OFF!
Thursday, July 17, 2003
02:48 a.m.
is there hope for me
after all is said and done
anything at any price
all of this for you
all the spoils of a wasted life
all of this for you
Friday, July 4, 2003
12:31 a.m.
smashed up my sanity
smashed up my integrity
smashed up what i believed in
smashed up what's left of me
smashed up my everything
smashed up all that was true
gonna smash myself to pieces
i don't know what else to do
Monday, June 30, 2003
01:57 a.m.
Yeah....psychiatrical drugs...I love them *.*
Saturday, June 21, 2003
11:18 p.m.
A thousand lips a thousand tongues
A thousand throats a thousand lungs
A thousand ways to make it true
I want to do terrible things to you
Friday, June 20, 2003
01:08 a.m.
My dearest Lya
Me loves you =****
Tuesday, June 17, 2003
12:18 a.m.
HopiHari....Yey... I`m in here right now......Envy me!!!
Saturday, October 27, 2001
01:11 p.m.
people = shit
Saturday, June 14, 2003
03:01 p.m.
Now that I'm leaving I realised that I really want you....I reeeeally do. But you don't. And I dunno if I'm happy or sad about it. -.-'
Sunday, May 25, 2003
10:21 p.m.
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
Thursday, May 8, 2003
11:50 p.m.
And this loneliness,
It just won't leave me alone, ohh no...
Tuesday, May 6, 2003
02:09 a.m.
I hate b-day parties and hollydays. They are all excuse to eat like a pig, stop exercising and get even fatter! +.+
I should stop talking about my fatness, I know its anoying...sorry! +.+
Monday, April 28, 2003
10:01 p.m.
Oh, its evil, babe,
the way you let your grace enrapture me
When well you know, I'd be insance -
to ever let that dirty game recapture me
Tuesday, April 15, 2003
01:06 a.m.
Happy b-day, Daria. *sarcastic*
Sunday, March 23, 2003
02:59 a.m.
Binge....Purge...Binge...Purge...
I hate hollydays +.+
Wednesday, March 19, 2003
12:21 a.m.
Where Greed Talks
Here's to you, my friend,
here's a kind of love for you.
Can you see my eyes, my view turns away.
Dancing shades on my face:
That's where stars cannot shine.
Silence's coming soon today...
You think you're right,
but it works inside; it's started long ago:
You're bored by your ruined life,
but you think it must be so...
Why can't you see these staring sick eyes everywhere?
It's a sin, that's a fact you can't deny,
blow away, blow away, blow away these walls -
your life a train just passing by,
these always watching eyes...
This killing voice always talks to me,
always spinning around.
Silence's coming soon today.
Friday, March 7, 2003
12:39 a.m.
Can't sleep, punks will eat me! 9.9
Monday, February 17, 2003
01:26 a.m.
I'm numb. I can't even feel angry, sad or...glad about this situation. I really don't care about me or them right now. -.-'
Thursday, February 13, 2003
11:34 p.m.
Eye
I lie
I wait
I start
I hesitate
I am
I breath
I melt
I think of me
Is it any wonder I can't sleep?
All I have is all you gave to me
Is it any wonder I found these
Through you
Turn to the gates of heaven, to myself feel down
Turn away from Eye
It's not enough
Just a touch
It's not enough
I taste
I love
I call
I bleed enough
I hate
I might
I was
I want too much
Is it any wonder I can't sleep?
All I have is all you gave to me
Is it any wonder I found these
Through you
Turn to the gates of heaven, to myself feel down
Turn away from Eye
It's not enough
Just a touch
Tuesday, January 28, 2003
02:57 a.m.
*drunk*
Feels soooooooooo goood *.*
and I'm so ..sooo...sooooo...nevermind....damn! +.+
Thursday, January 23, 2003
01:08 a.m.
Last
gave up trying to figure out
my head got lost along the way
worn out from giving it up
my soul i pissed it all away
still stings these shattered nerves
pigs we get what pigs deserve
i'm going all the way down
i'm leaving today
come come come on you've gotta fill me up
come come gotta let me inside of you
come come come on you're gotta fix me up
come come gotta let me inside of you
still feel it all slipping away
but it doesn't matter anymore
everybody's still chipping away
but it doesn't matter anymore
look through these blackened eyes
you'll see ten thousand lies
my lips may promise but my heart is a whore
come come come on you've gotta fill me up
come come gotta let me inside of you
come come come on you're gotta fix me up
come come gotta let me get through to you
this isn't meant to last
this is for right now
i know it's all getting away
it comes to me as no surprise
i know what's coming to me
is never going to arrive
fresh blood through tired skin
new sweat to drown me in
dress up this rotten carcass
just to make it look alive
come come come on you've gotta fill me up
come come gotta let me inside of you
come come come on you're gotta fix me up
come come gotta let me get through to you
this isn't meant to last
this is for right now
i wish i could put the blame on you
i want you to make me
i want you to take me
i want you to break me
then i want you to throw me away
Monday, January 20, 2003
01:30 a.m.
my blood wants to say hello to you
my feelings want to get inside of you
my soul is so afraid to realize
every little word is a lack of me
(argued to be "'how very little there is left of me")
and i want you
Sunday, January 19, 2003
07:25 a.m.
Thank Gods!!! I can see it all clear now. I'm not blind anymore. It hurts like helll and I know I'll keep suffering but now it is alll soooo damn clear!! And I hate you!
Saturday, January 18, 2003
07:31 a.m.
Why do we crucify ourselves?
Every day I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day I crucify myself
And my heart is sick of being in chains
Friday, January 17, 2003
04:24 a.m.
No, you're not going anywhere...
Tuesday, January 14, 2003
02:54 a.m.
Oh Gods XD
I really like to take this test sometimes ans it always get worse results -.-' .
Sunday, January 12, 2003
06:54 p.m.
Ooh, I've been dirt
And I don't care
Ooh, I've been dirt
And I don't care
‘Cause I’m burning inside
I'm just a yearning inside
And I'm the fire o' life
Ooh, I've been hurt
And I don't care
Ooh, I've been hurt
And I don't care
‘Cause I’m burning inside
I'm just a dreaming this life
And do you feel it?
Said do you feel it when you touch me?
Said do you feel it when you touch me?
There's a fire Well, it’s a fire It was just a burning
Yeah, alright
Ooh! Burning inside
Burning Just a dreaming
Just a dreaming
It was just a dreaming
It was just a dreaming
Play it for me, babe, with love!
Sunday, January 5, 2003
11:23 p.m.
FUCK YOU!
WEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
So we were in a motel...three girls....naked in bathtub relaxing and talkin about man in motel.... wow man....was one of the most amazing things I have ever had in all my life. FUCK YOU ALL UNUSELLESS MANS ....we dont need you to have fun....just a litlle bit of alcohol, and dity talk and a hot bathtub with bublles. Nothing else...no sex!!!
YAY! My mood is wayyyyyyy too better than before~! ^______^
Monday, December 23, 2002
04:59 a.m.
It won't give up it wants me dead
Goddamn this noise inside my head..
Wednesday, December 18, 2002
03:21 a.m.
sooo godamn dirt...
Do you feel it when you touch me? heh!
Sunday, December 15, 2002
05:48 a.m.
*sniffles*
What the hell is wrong with me??? Why can't I sto crying? GODAMNED!!!! I donnu why the fuck I'm crying anymore... ><'
Friday, December 13, 2002
02:32 a.m.
YAY!
Fast as you can, baby!!!! ^^
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
02:24 a.m.
I dont wanna loose you!!!! I'm sorry but I cant breath without you! I cant mind being without you even dead, sorry but its something taht I have to acept, and I need more time.
Friday, December 6, 2002
01:30 a.m.
GODS I wanna scream!!!!!!!! I wanna run naked throut the streets...wait, Im nopt showing my fat body.... I wannna run and screan and hit some poor kid from somalia with my baseball bat!
AMIGOINNNNNNNNNGCRAAAAAAAAAAZEEEEH. +.+ FUCKFUCKFUCK.
FOCK.AAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH FOCKAHUHUAHUAHUAHUA HE SAYS FOCKHUAHUAHUAHUAHUA HE SAYS SNUFFLING FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOCK!!!!!!!!!!! AHUAHUAHUAHUAHUAHUAHU
Thursday, December 5, 2002
03:06 a.m.
POGOPOGOPOGO
*bounce bounce bounce bounce*
Why the Fuck Im doing it????
MAKEITSTOPMAKEITSTOPMAKEITSTOP. +.+
Gods, I forgot to take my pills again -.-'
Thursday, December 5, 2002
02:55 a.m.
Go me!
'Surviving' kit: depeche mode, baseball bat and sleeping pills.
Gods, I love them all!
Wednesday, December 4, 2002
02:54 a.m.
I'm back! YAY! -.-'
So I dicided to ressurect the blog, now I'll post more often here. School is over, too much free time = too much time in front of this screem, so I'll probably post here everyday or something.
I've pierced my nose last Week.. is a very small jewel and very cute as well but hurt like hell to get it -.-'! I did 'cakinha' again, damn! why can't I spend my time doing good things? Blah! Mommy and daddy aren't pissed at me anymore, just a lil paranoid...well I guess they aren't the only ones. But everything is 'fine'now. No more cakinha for Daria!!! Nope, me needs to wait for Lya. XD
I'm going to watch Vanilla Sky finally, I've tried to see it a thousand times since the begining of the year -.-'.
Sunday, December 1, 2002
06:42 p.m.
